When we kiss

When we kiss

My heart threatens to abandon my chest



Stifling pain

Sears through me

My eyes fill

Tears threatening


What I work so hard to hide


Eyes shut tight

Willing the tears back in

Sucking up the pain

Easing back

The words

Eager to escape my lips


I hope

That you don’t know

Would you think me weak?

It is enough

That I tremble at your touch

You need no more ammunition


I don’t fantasize about you

I never make it that far

The very thought of you

Shreds my sanity

Depletes the core of me


I simply ride it out


Curled up in a ball

I squeeze it back in



Forcing it away

The tears

The pain

The words


I love you

I love you so much it hurts